Rebelling against my purpose made my life very hard by Tricia O Connor

In 2015 I was living in Bristol, having so much fun, lots of great friends and lots of gigs and exhibitions to go to.

Bristol is a very creative place and I felt I could be myself there.

Bristol has the vibe of a festival and everyone dresses how they want to dress. 


I had no intention of coming back to Ireland for a few years .One day I started to get this really strong need to go home.

 It felt like something inside me was calling me home. 

After crying non stop for a few weeks about my decision I decided to go back to Co.Kerry. 


I didnt really have a plan when I came home other then creating art and music events with my friends and bringing that Bristolian vibe home with me. 


I didnt have any solid plan or clarity  because I was also hiding who I was.

I was planning on keeping the spiritual side of me hidden.

 I’d no plans to share my skills and wisdom I was gathering from the spiritual journey Id been on since 2010. 


I was afraid of what people would think of me.

 I was protecting and hiding my light because I didnt want it to be taken from me.

I was afraid I’d get it wrong. 

I was in my first year of Saturn Return and I was not listening to my soul’s call for a second!!

I was rebelling against my purpose, my uniqueness and I was making life very hard for myself.

Every 27 to 29 years, Saturn returns to the sign it was in when you were born, a cycle called The Saturn Return. Understanding this cosmic rite of passage can help you advance into your next stage of adulthood.

YOUR COSMIC RITE OF PASSAGE

What do you want to be when you “grow up” and are you even ready to take on such a momentous role? Every 29.5 years (approximately), you’ll get the nudge you need to advance into a new stage of adulthood.

Being rebellious is not something you want to do during your Saturn return.

And because I was not taking responsibility for my life, all areas of my life started to crumble.

 I was not on solid ground, I had no foundation. 

I had a job to do on Earth and I was ignoring it. 


Everything was taken away so I could rebuild a new infrastructure. 

I went deep into my spiritual studies and travelled with my shadow for three years and mined my unconscious for the jewels I needed. 

I found clarity, I found confidence and I found my authentic voice. 

The journey inwards is a courageous journey and often can be lonely. 

But you’ll find your truth and depth in there. 

You’ll find more energy and a solid path you can follow.

You’ll know where you are going and what you are doing if you continue to follow your intuition. 

Ask yourself 3 questions 

What is calling me?

What do I need? 

What do I desire?

Would love to hear your insights in the comments below

x

Tricia


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Is the sudden jolt to your life asking you to think differently? by Tricia O Connor

Happy Solar eclipse in Cancer 

Cancer is a highly imaginative sign and is guided by emotion and their heart, they could have a hard time blending into the world around them. 

Being ruled by the Moon, phases of the lunar cycle deepen their internal mysteries and create fleeting emotional patterns that are beyond their control.



Eclipses stop us from going around in loops.

They stop us following the same known path.

Eclipses are like a lightning bolt through your life that encourage you to stretch your thinking a bit, move past your limitations. 

Examples of limiting thoughts are

‘’I can’t meditate’’

‘’Nothing ever changes in my life I must be cursed’’ 

‘’I should’ve my life figured out by now’’


 Allow your neural pathways to discover new parts of the brain that will lead you to new experiences. 

The neural pathways in the brain begin to solidify by age 25; however, new neural pathways can be created with a bit of effort.

 By challenging yourself and taking on new habits, you can grow more neurons and create new pathways. 

New neural pathways are delicate and they need nourishment in order to strengthen. 

A good way to strengthen them would be by focusing on a new exercise or a new way of doing something. Sticking with it and master it until it becomes a habit. 


Easy! You can rewire your brain and life with just a few changes to your daily routine. 

An example of this would be


  1. Start painting

  2. Taking different routes to work

  3. Reading a book thats outside your usual interests. 



This solar eclipse is asking are you receiving enough , are you exercising your feminine muscle  Maybe how you treat yourself just isnt working anymore………...


For this eclipse think a little differently , what if this sudden jolt to your life is asking you to break away from what you usually do

Can you connect into the flow of emotions within? 

Can you hear what they are saying? Do they feel frozen or flowing?

Are you allowing your authentic self a chance to shine?


How are you feeling on this Eclipse post in the comments below

x

Tricia

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Did someone overstep their mark? by Tricia O Connor

If you are sensitive and you are inclined to give alot, you more then likely have had your boundaries crossed.
I used to have the worst boundaries and often couldn't figure out how to untangle myself from others energy fields.
Having healthy boundaries isnt something you're taught in school, it's a trial and error process navigating you're way towards having good boundaries with family and friends.

Relationships are tricky to navigate but the stronger the relationship you have with yourself the more tools we have in our tool box.

Everybody has had their boundaries crossed and everybody has crossed others boundaries. 

When your boundaries are crossed we feel unsafe, we feel like we are not being heard.

when the boundary is violated in order to do harm or take advantage, then you’ll likely need walls, gates and guards.




HEALTHY BOUNDARIES allow you to:

•    Have high self-esteem and self-respect.

•    Share personal information gradually, in a mutually sharing and trusting relationship.

•    Protect physical and emotional space from intrusion.

•    Have an equal partnership where responsibility and power are shared.

•    Be assertive. Confidently and truthfully say “yes” or “no” and be okay when others say “no” to you.

•    Separate your needs, thoughts, feelings, and desires from others. Recognize that your boundaries and needs are different from others.

•    Empower yourself to make healthy choices and take responsibility for yourself.



Here are some questions to help you gain clarity!

  1. Do you sacrifice your plans and goals in order to please others

  2. What do you value most about yourself.

  3. How do you feel when your boundaries have been over stepped.

Post in the comments below about the insight’s you’ve gained.

x

Tricia


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Strawberry Full Moon by Tricia O Connor


The Full Moon doorway opens its door for three days.  

Its a time of letting go , saying goodbye and closing doors.

When you’re beginning a new chapter, you have to close the door to some aspect of your past.

For the next three days don’t rush ahead , go inward, listen to what needs to be released


If you choose to change lanes and move in cyclical time you can mark into your calendar the moon phases.

You’re creating  space in your month to go inwards and nurture your emotions .

As much as you put hours  into work, you must also create space for things to come back to you.



This Strawberry Full Moon is bringing romance, new beginnings, fireworks, joy and celebration

It feels like good fortune, warmth , magic and wholeness

Sagittarius born are brave and full of confidence.

Their positivity lies in their open-mindedness. They are the ones who believe in moving on and exploring.

They are great admirers of freedom

The Strawberry full Moon is so warm and rich and invites you to think bigger, think on a global scale.

Stretch your creative muscle,.

Where would the adventurer within you take you?


It’s also asking us to stop running on a the treadmill of life.

You know life cant come to a halt but you’ve got an opportunity when you move with the cycles to take rest stops in your month.



Ritual questions

On the Full Moon you let go so make sure to burn what needs to be burned or buried over the next 3 days

  • What is causing you to contract or feel squeezed at the moment.

Can you let this go?

  • Where is there new energy/ good fortune happening in your life?

  • Look to the stars and moon tonight …. What is your greatest wish?

Write in the comments below your thoughts?

x

Tricia

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You're not lost, you're inbetween chapters by Tricia O Connor

This blog post gives you practical advice about what to do when you’re in between chapters. This place you’re in can either be really scary or it can be really creative and fun. This is place where you gather your friends, clear out some old clothes and start welcoming the new chapter in.

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Circle time with four years olds taught me how to hold sacred circles. by Tricia O Connor

I’ve taken major risks over the last few years so I could shape my world to be aligned with what I valued and what I want to create.

‘Jump and the net appears’ is a term you’ll hear alot in the business/ coaching world.

It doesnt,


Suffering for your Art. Being a martyr for your work. Living without so you can bring your greater vision in quicker is not a smart move.

It leave you feeling empty and worn out.

Celebrate all that you are learning and know where you are is perfect.

Support yourself financially now with other work that feeds into what you’re greater visions looks like to you.



Owning a small business and being on a spiritual journey does not mean my work and income is solely coming from Abundant Moon.

I also work with children, specifically children with special needs.

I’ve just spent a year working in a  school as an S.na and working in an environment that promotes conscious teaching and Monetesorri learning.

Montessori principles are respect for the child, encouraging repetition and setting up learning environments that promote the childrens sense of belonging, confidence and agency plus sensory based learning tools.

It has taught me how to be more patient, softer and kinder.

Holy moly holding circle time with four years olds really teaches you how to hold sacred circles.

I’ve learned so much through children about how to support adults who are on a spiritual journey.

A spiritual journey is essentially focusing on what brings you the most joy and fulfillment and creating a life that is aligned with this.

It has shown me that  innocence , playfulness and curiosity  is in all people and that needs to be acknowledged. And people needs sacred spaces where a relationship to these qualities can be cultivated.  .

Would love to hear your opinions in the comments below.

x

Tricia

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Stop poking at your wounds by Tricia O Connor

On Monday evening at our Womens Meditation circle we looked at new beginnings

I create Womens meditation circles because these are the sacred spaces we need to be in so we can restore our energy, heal and get connected to the richness within.

Life doesnt add up does it? Where is the space to just be? Where do you go to get clear?



I love building this sacred spaces.

Before I begin our class I have things I want to create a center piece with. Flowers, soft fabrics, trinkets and candles.

I love beyonce, who doesnt!! and in her film Homecoming she said ‘every bead on the costumes has an intention sown into it.

And thats what I wanted to create in Meditation class this week.

Every petal  had an intention

‘ For you to see your light’


In my meditation circle I teach about cyclical living and use meditation techniques to help you be present to your enviorment. Present to yourself, Present to what you want in your life.

Life is too short to be constantly poking at your wounds.

And its no fun.

Its important to be meditate and take time to create a map of self enquiry.

But you’ll get stuck in your wounds if you give them more focus then what you want more of in your life.

This will happen if you’re on a spirtual journey, doing all the wound work is also glorified in the spirtual industries too much.


If you are like my work is are naturally comfortable with looking inwards.

You naturally have the tools to look inward.

Create the situations and enviorments in your life where you get to experience what feels most aligned with you and tend to what you need to release simultaneously.  

If you’re too focused on what is going on in your outside world and other people

You’ll miss the cinematic picture that is showing you the richness and gifts that lie within you.

Would love to hear your thoughts in the comments below

x

Tricia


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I'm always on a mission by Tricia O Connor

I’m always on a mish and last month I decided to deepen my connection to align my business with my menstrual cycle
I read about this in Do less by @katenorthrup
Aligning my business with my menstrual cycle means I can create rest stops, know when to go into planning mode,or when to push forward.
I’ve discovered I’ve way more time and feel much more grounded. 


If you’re driven and you’re doing life on your terms I highly recommend you do this
I got into it pretty easily because I live attuned with cycles anyway. I can imagine diving straight in is disorientating if you’re a newbie to cyclical living. 
Slowing down and listening to your body is not as easy as it seems. 
It takes practice and your attention but its not beyond your capabilities. 
And you can get apps to help you too which is cool!

I love my work so much .
I often realise ‘oh shit I just worked 7 days in a row and I didnt even notice’
Me and Beyonce are grind soulmates. 
She doesnt know this yet but she will….
Even if I'm enjoying my work it does inevitably lead to burn out. 
And burn out is the worst.

Today is the 1st day of my period, so its time to go inward, listen and let go of what doesn’t feel good. 
Obviously my life/ business cant come to a total halt but I can make adjustments. I’m taken myself off social media for 4 days.
No posts and no videos.

🌹 It’s important during the menstrual phase to look at your scedge and go ‘
''Ok what can i remove / put on hold while i rest and turn inwards’’
If life is too busy see what small shifts you can make.

I would love to hear your thoughts in the comments below.

Full Moon in Scorpio by Tricia O Connor

Why are you  pouring shitty chemicals on your grass???

Happy Full Moon in Scorpio

Every Moon cycle comes with an insight and an action to take.

The insight presented itself in my life as someone pouring shitty chemicals in their garden and it seeped into mine.


Scorpio is your darkness, your sovereignty and your sacred venom.

To put it simply!

Dont be afraid of the things that piss you off.

Allow them to come to this surface on this full moon and let them go.



You’ve got a place within you where you boil and curse things.

This is where you’ll  find your light also.

That doesnt make sense does it?

How is there light in your darkness?


Let me give you an example


This is showed up in my life as people pouring shitty chemical on their grass and it seeped into mine.

My friend has created an organic ecosystem . To say were werent happy would be an understatement!

Myself and my friend were  growling about it for a few days

Wer’e also aware that that anger will lead to resentment if you don’t take action on what you feel is an injustice.

Harbouring resentment is a strong Scorpion energy so we knew we’d to let that go.



Every Moon cycle comes with an insight and an action to take.

We got the insight

Together we cast a spell to bring harmony to Nature.

And I thought I’ll  create more Nature that is nurtured by

Planting organic veg beds and growing a herb garden .

Simple action/

Anger >>> passion>>>Abundance


This scorpio full moon invites you to look at your underworld.

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Where are you  holding resistance ?

Are you thinking ‘If I  put myself first people wont like me.

‘If i start giving voice to the things that I feel resentful about I’ll realise I’m not happy with my life’?


I  feel with this full moon is calling the Dark Feminine forward in you

What is the Dark Feminine?

The Dark feminine is rage, passion ,  strength , courage and being comfortable with turning anger into abundance.

The scorpio words that came to be were Sacred venom.

I don’t mean putting the Scorpion Venom unconsciously  into something that’s pissing you off.

I mean

What needs your rage, your passion?

Does Nature need you to stand up for it?

Does a sustainable way of living need you to stand up for it?

What do you need to  pierce through so you can say

I live here too, I have just as much right to be here as you do.




Lettting Go Ritual .

Every Full Moon is a time of letting go

  • Create a clean , clutter free space for yourself.

  • Get your notebook and cards if you have some.

  • Go inwards.

  • Get a piece of paper answer these 3 questions plus anything else you need to let go of.

  • Then burn it in a fire or outside where its safe

1)Right down three things that annoy you/ you feel resentful about and do some excavation .

2) What is boiling under the surface that needs to be released

3) What are you afraid of standing up for.

Post in the comments below how you feel


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New Moon in Taurus by Tricia O Connor

Happy New Moon in Taurus!

The New moon is a time of planting seeds and starting afresh

Lets get down to it!

Taurus is a Earth energy . It is the bull grazing , huffing and puffing. Inhale exhale inhale exhale.

Then someone pisses him off and its showtime!!


What's bubbling underneath the surface that needs to be released in a fiery passionate way?

Who’s pissing you off?

What’s pissing you off?

What needs to change.

Give yourself permission to safely let it blow up.


The pen/ paintbrush is mightier then the sword .

How can you channel the fire and rage in a creative way rather then projecting onto others?


Ritual Questions.

Write these down on a piece of paper and any other new ideas, aspirations, people , thinsg you want to bring into your life?

1) What bubbling underneath the surface and needs to be expressed

2)What are you passionate about ?

3) What new things can you create with this fire and passion

X

Tricia


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Being a Spiritual Nerd has helped me be my Authentic self by Tricia O Connor

I’m not a seeker, I’m not looking for the meaning of life.

I’ve always wanted  to forge my own path and create a lifes work.

As an Artist this doesn’t mean creating a body of work and having loads of exhibitions.

It means I tune people into cyclical time, their creativity, their essence and give people full permission to be their authentic self.

That’s my lifes work. Love it.

I’ve found the pieces to my path through Art college and doing an M.a in Art theory social theory and Socially Engaged Art.

Its come through training as a Meditation teacher and energy therapist and doing facilitation training.

Its come through being on the visual Arts committee for Kfest Arts Festival in Co.Kerry  in Ireland. And through working in Arts and Education.

It’s comes through attending retreats and reading alot of books

Its came through in many different forms.  



I stand for giving myself full permission to  shine and be authentic.

I feel held by life because I choose to live in cyclical time.

I‘ve alot of  clarity that I’m creating something that’s  beautiful and valuable.


I believe in making micro shifts to the individual & collective thinking. I don’t think its my responsibility to save the world but I am part  of a shift that helps us live in a way that’s nourishes our creativity and talents. Why push against the tide when you can learn to swim with it. Teaching this is something I’m really passionate about.

My training and study has shown me that it is possible to create a life that’s by design and not following what you  ‘should do’ .

Everybody has a unique spark and it’s yours and its worthy of expression.

I’ve  learned through study in  spiritual worlds is that you don’t need to be all love and happiness all the time.

I think the spiritual industries perpetuate  a form of perfectionism and your not ‘getting it’ if you don’t operate in a way that’s ‘spiritual’

This is bullshit.

As much as we are divine we are also human.

You can’t be happy and chilled out all the time.

You’re different every day. Give yourself permission to be authentically you.


X

Tricia  

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Cyclical Living by Tricia O Connor

im starting to redesign my business/ life to align with my menstrual 28 day cycles.

When you start to bleed energetically its time to rest and evaluate whats not working.


On the 1st day of your period your left and right side of the brain are perfectly in sync.


I’ve been on fire all day and super clear and focused.

today I am meant to rest and evaluate

Being this clear and not being able to take action is difficult for me as I’m very action orientated.

I’m highly creative also but staying in rest moment has showing me not to leak it all over the place also just because the supply is there.



When I moved out of my work day I switched my focus to what trees and flowers I was going to plant in my garden. Then found myself getting pissed off cos I can’t plant everything now.


Reminding me again that everything has its season. And everything happens in perfect timing.


Cyclical living supports and nourishes us. Looking forward to seeing where this leads me.


Love to hear your opinions in the comments below.


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Libra Full Moon by Tricia O Connor

Happy Libra Full Moon.

Human beings have painting and carved the Moon almost from the origins of creative expression . Ancient watchers and early civilizations often honour the Moon as a god.

Women have been gathering under the new and full moon for thousands of years.

We intuitively know  it holds our medicine, our healing and our wisdom.

On the New Moon we plant seeds. On the Full Moon we let go.



The Full Moon is a time of letting go of what is no longer serving us

Libra governs balance and harmony and is inviting us this month to look at


  1. Creating harmony in our relationships

  2. Creating balance between our male and female energies

  3. Where we can let of resistance to life.

  4. Where we can create more beauty .



Use this Full Moon to let go of what is creating imbalance in your life.

Are you constantly striving and have no time for play?

Are you  too extroverted and have no time for reflection?



Ritual questions for the Libra Full Moon

Write the answers to this on a piece of paper and then burn.

  • What is creating an imbalance in your life?

  • What practical steps can you do to let go of this?

  • Where are you too resistant towards something



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Whats going on in our community? by Tricia O Connor

Aoife,

‘’I’ve always been interested in meditation and like how this class focus’s on cycles and natural rhythms. I found its a great stress relief and very relaxing. It has a very nice group of people to meditate with also. Tricia is very welcoming and makes everyone feel very relaxed.’’




Damian

I was interested in developing my ability to control my everyday mood and understand more about my mindset. Its a really good start to the week and helps me get into a routine of practising myself during the week.

Sometimes things come up in me that are uncomfortable but this helps me grow as a person. Tricia is very helpful in class and is also available outside the class which is good.



Fidel

‘‘I started so I could concentrate better. I feel like I am in the zone with it and Ive got alot more to learn. I found tricia great as a teacher’’.    





Lyndsey

‘‘I joined meditation was for some “me time”

it’s so relaxed and everyone is very friendly. I look forward to it all week  I feel it energized me for the week and keeps me in a positive headspace.

I’ve only had positive experiences there.

Tricia is a fantastic teacher, she is very warm and is always teaching us something new. She explains what’s going on in the universe in such a way that everyone can can resonate with it. If you don’t have a lot of knowledge about these cycles you wont get lost in the conversation as Tricia explains it all so well.’’



Notre Dame by Tricia O Connor

A new foundation has been set.



Yesterday I cried all day for Notre dame and for the suppression of the Sacred Feminine

which underneath it has the ruins of a temple of Isis, is home to Mother Mary and Joan of Arc and was created by the Templars built in honour of Mary Magadalene .

The poles shifted and it freed deep karmic grief in my Heart.



I get alot of messages in my dreams and a few night ago I dreamt of a Pyramid with a spire going through it.

The Pyramid moved in two pieces moved in opposite rotation like a rubiks cube and I heard the words

‘A New foundation has been set’ and there was a real sense of  completion.


I woke delighted thinking oh great a fresh start, my foundation has been cemented.

But after feeling into my grief yesterday and today I realised this is about the collective.


Underneath the busyness  of everyday life we are transmissions of the Goddess.

That Sacred transmission being spoken through words, through treating our lives like its a piece of art, an embodied expression of our divine uniqueness.


A new foundation has been set and its calling you to step into your wholeness



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Tricia


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Be an Artist for 10 mins by Tricia O Connor

I used to be terrified of expressing who I am, I’d have a block in my throat when asked what I do.

I’m an Artist and Meditation teacher and I teach people how to tune into their natural rythms and creativity.

Simple.. No big deal , nothing woo woo about that.

You may be time poor in  but I know you can create 10 mins for yourself.

And

1) Destress and let go of your day

2) Recharge your batteries

3) Give yourself 10 mins to listen to yourself.

Click this link to watch the video

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Supressed Emotions by Tricia O Connor

We supress empowered emotions like joy, love ,forgiveness and compassion at much as we supress uncomfortable emotions just as pain, sadness, fear and anger.

Every cell in your body records every single thought and experience that you had today.

You cant be the same person everyday because we the biochemistry of our body changes daily in response to our thoughts and emotions.

When you suppress any of your emotions your range of potential and possibilities in life grows smaller.

You limit the flow of energy coming into your life.

When yo supress empowered emotions such as joy, love, or forgiveness it is often because we deem ourselves unworthy of experiencing these emotions.

What emotions and energy do you want to positively radiate?

Our biggest Fear by Tricia O Connor

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Published by Tricia O Connor

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How did something I was so scared of become my lifes work?
For most of my twenties I resisted the path that was laid out for me.
A path that was calling me into higher service as a Woman, Artist and Healer.
While I was training and studying as a Healer I was still hiding myself, my gifts and who I really was.
Then Saturn Return started to kick in when I was 27 and I got slammed hard.
All the doors that would lead me to run off my path closed.
As my souls memories began to resurface I'd have this awful sensation that I had a knife to my neck, that I was going to be killed.
I knew it made no sense but it felt very real.
I would tell friends and clients who came to see me, ‘dont tell anyone you were here’ . Madness!!
The only way for me to get rid of this fear was to go fully into it.
To go into my internal world and jump into the darkness, to look at the mother wound and fear of persecution.
As we all know Women who were healers, midwives, intuitives and anyone who was deemed powerful were persecuted.
Its a memory that's in the collective female psyche and it cannot be eradicated until we lovingly face it!
The Feminine arts of coming together in Meditation, Ritual, working with moon cycles and divination holds immense power.
I've seen personal power be returned to alot of Women through the Feminine Arts.
Its a power within you that if you feel it stirring, you cant ignore.

Forty Day Practices by Tricia O Connor

Committing to a 40 day practice trains your mind and builds your inner reserve of that mantra or affirmation. It creates a new energy in your body that will manifest in your external world .
That goes for all repetitive thoughts and stories you drop into your internal world. It will manifest.
You are not a victim to your reality.
You created it.
When things are shit and chaotic it's another invitation to clean up and return home to you. There are gifts and lessons to be learned even when life is tough .
I can't wait to receive more gifts in the coming months from this practice .
These gifts may come forth as wisdom, confidence, new opportunities, new relationships, money.

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